Memory Diary Entry #1

 I first want to say that I decided to take a friend's advice and write my thoughts as if my grandma were here to read it. So this is sort of like a letter but I'm sharing the memories that mean something to me. Dear grandma, I love you so much and I wanted to tell you that you mean the world to me. You held a special place in my heart and I loved you for who you are. I appreciate you and what you have done to help me grow as a person. I love you so much and I know that you're with me in my heart, but there isn't a time that I don't miss you. It still doesn't seem real to me that you're gone and there are times when I feel sad and I miss you, but I know that I can smile at the memories and look at the good times we had together. If I were to tell you about all the things I was doing, I think you be proud and so would grandpa. I know in my heart that God is watching over me, but I also know in my heart that you guys are watching over me. When you passed away, it was like a piece of my heart started to break in two because you were more than a grandma to me, you were like a best friend that I could share things with and tell things to. You understood me and comforted me in my time of need because whenever I needed someone to hold my hand in church you were there. I wanted to tell you that no matter what, I will love you forever and always. You're special to me and you were special to all who knew you. I love you without end and I love you forevermore. I know that God called you to be with Him and He knew it was your time but it still hurts knowing that you aren't here and knowing that I can't tell you all the things I wish I could tell you. I remember just talking on the phone and coming over to your house and talking with you and sharing the things that I did. I want you to know that I'm an aunt to 12 and that you have a new great grandson named William Andrew Krafft who is very precious. I want you to know that I'm still doing what God has brought me too. I want you to know that I'm apart of three different ministries. The first one is Christian Media Spotlight, the second one is Red's Room and the third one is Soldiers For Faith. I've been doing great things with all three ministries and I hope you know that one of the things I will not forget is your kind and loving spirit. One of the things that I'm doing with the ministry called Soldiers For Faith is a phone call Bible Study called Warriors In Faith, where I am helping others learn about God. With the Red's Room Ministry I have given two outreach messages over zoom and was able to share what God laid on my heart. Finally, with the Christian Media Spotlight Ministry, I've been so involved with so many different things with it that I'm blessed to call it a home. I'm blessed to call all the ministries God has brought me to and through, home where it's a safe place. I've also been helping out once a month with a zoom call for teens with Hydrocephalus and have been apart of so many other phone call Bible Studies through Soldiers For Faith. I've also done zoom calls on Saturday nights with others who have Hydrocephalus just like me. I am still helping out in church and one of the other things that I've been thinking about doing now that I'm older, and I gave my Profession of Faith, and was baptized as an infant, is get baptized now that I am older to continue to grow my relationship and faith walk with God. I love you grandma and I hope you know how much I love you. I miss you every single day but I know that I'll see you again someday and that it's never goodbye.  I also know that I love you and I know that you're watching over me with Jesus and that your love for me will never fade and I can hold you close in my heart in knowing that the memories I continue to share will be happy, but also share to continue to know that I'm keeping the kind of person you were alive in my heart and knowing that you mean the world to me and I will never ever forget you and I love you too.