Memory Diary Entry #2

 Dear Grandma, I miss being able to chat with you in person and over the phone. I remember just telling you what I would be doing with school, telling you about all these different things. There isn't a day that goes by when I do smile at the memories, but I also at the same time feel like something is missing and that something is you. I really want to say that you have meant so much to me and when you passed away, I don't think I ever remember crying so hard that it was like, not real to me. I felt I was going to wake up from a dream and you still be here. I thought it was all a horrible dream that I would soon wake up from and I hear your voice and you still be around to help me through anything. You were so special and supportive of what I would do. You knew that I had a pure and big heart in wanting to be there for people. I'll still never forget the time that you and I would talk and everything but we also laugh about a lot of things. I'll never forget the time you and I had lunch at our Mexican restaurant where you knew that was my favorite place but whenever I asked you to guess where I would go for my birthday, you played along and would guess something else but you always knew the place I liked to go. This year on my birthday, it was a little bit difficult for me because I wanted to call you and see if you wanted to come. This was my first birthday without you or grandpa and it felt so different in words I can't explain. I smile at the memories, but somedays before I smile at them again, I have a moment where I want to cry and I do. I am writing this because I want you to know that while I'm still the person God has created me to be with a strong faith, a strong spirit, and an encouraging person who can be there for others, it still makes me feel the way that I do and I hope you know that I will love you forever and I'll never stop sharing the memories. I'm still writing and I'm still working on my second book in hopes that when I finish it that people will like it and that people will enjoy reading just like the time that I published my first book. I hope you know that I love you so much and that as you're not here, I know that your in my heart but I also hope you know that all of us as a family will be okay and that we're doing good. I still have the letter you gave me on my twenty fifth birthday and that's something I will hold close to my heart and never forget. I know that you're in Heaven and it's where you're supposed to be now but it still hurts a little inside for me. It hurts because we were so close and we did so much. I will never forget the time that I spent the night at your house and we would enjoy each other's company. I'll never forget the times that we spent just talking and you telling me stories. I'll never forget the things that made you special and well you because you were one of the sweetest grandmas I know and I hope you know that no matter what I am always going to share my Faith with others and I am going to share my love for God with those who need encouragement. I'm going to continue to make you proud of me and I'm going to keep being the person that God made me to be.